ANGRY

ANGRY ANGRY ANGRY. ARG!!!!

CONTROL, CONTROL, CONTROL.....

ARG!!!!

FUCKING ANGRY LAR.

Closure.

K, enough drama-mama. What a sponger I was yesterday, so... chapter closes today. I've been slapped back into reality again. Sorry for being such a whiner.. acting weirdly and all yesterday hmm. :/ It's confirmed, end of phase! Thanks so much for this 7 years, you f ruined it. I don't need such treatments from you anymore, good luck with your life then. SJ SJ SJ SJ SJ. MY GF! THANKS SO MUCH. You will always be a part of me :D SEVEN YEARS AND EVERMORE. Just wished you weren't so busy w your life. LOL, I LOVE YOU.

Exams are around the corner again! Time to shake the empty vessels up + mega dosage of caffeine boosters for study week! It's 2 freaking papers, so I guess it's not a big deal! And 2 weeks of holidays awaits.. hmm, Actually I have been on vacation mode all this while! Got to really wake up up up up! Project madness is back on track! GOGOGOGO.

Job hunting's up for me again! Ah zzz. I'm officially broke to the core. $2 till the 31st, hallelujah :D Seriously eat grass and live like a cow yo. :( I can't go any outings because I'm so broke. BOO. So, new job new job new job. I need a newwwwww start with this career thing. Won't you let me be a gooood employee?!?!?! I SWEAR I AM K. ZZZ. I seriously don't have luck with the jobs I have.. Sucks. Anyw, I also do hope to get confirmation for intern soooon!!! GONNA WORK MY ASS OFF FOR 3.2... I'M SO COMING SIP. BAH. Alright. Study time :) BYE.


Are you dizzy yet?

stuck in the same phase..

i'm losing myself... supressing everything for far too long, i'm abt to lose my sanity.. friends.. i think i've lost everyone without even knowing what i've done wrong.. karma's a whole load of bullshit.. i'm a loser anyw.. losers don't have friends.. now i really know how shit taste like.. it's true.. i have a really short life, mayb tht's the reason why..

i'm out of place. and i wish someone out there wld just understand, how it feels like to be me..

i'm happy.

fake.

i'm a phony, superficial piece of shit.

i'm sick of feigning.

i'm tired.

tmr's gng to be a better day.....? :'( pretty much doubt so.

Acapella.

I love acapellas, don't you? :D I don't mind singing for one, if my voice allows me to! Enjoy this video. I really loved it!


Lunch @ 2PM with my beloved babes :D Tehtehmyboobies, please get well soon! And to mummy and anyone else who is ill, take care! God bless you with a speedy recovery! :)

假装多好。。

I swear I am superrrr traumatized by THAT dream I had last night. Thank God Boobies saved me from it larrr. She bombarded my cell at 10AM in the morning. All for a good cause in fact, 'cause she woke me up to go school as I have forgotten that there was roche's make-up class.(So sweet hor? :3) AH ZZZ. And so I cabbed down to school and was 1hour late! :) Still I made it to school, right? As usual, roche was irritating. LOL. Stupid chao ah beng picking on me. ZZZ. Ended like 12 and went to have lunch with Boobies, Jacq and Mai. Curry chicken and bread for lunch!! :DD Yummmy and really filling. We went to the lab to waste some time as my next class was at 3. Irritating. LOL.

The weather these days is UNFORGIVEABLE I tell you! I was like feeling so thirsty every minute lar. Went to cheers before class and bought a cup of Frizz (Raspberry flav.). It does wonders on such hot and humid days :D And so I was happily slurping it during APEL class. HEE. Roche showed us this really touching video of a man having only months to live his life. If I had only a month to live, I wouldnt even have thought of giving a lecture. All I care for are the people close to my heart and I think all I would want to do is to spent time with every single one of them. Hmmm.... I don't fear the death of me, but I fear the death of the people that's around me. It really hurts so much to lose someone so close to you and that fact that you love so much..... Wait till death creeps into your bones, you'll understand the pain. Ok period for that. Had lecture after APEL and accompanied Boobies to Bugis. We waited 45mins for bus 23 lar. Freaking irritating.

After we were done with Bugis, we went back to my place for dinner, and Ethan came. We played Blackjack again. And I won $3 :D HEE. Today's a pretty long day eh? YAWNS... Time to go! And I'm heading of to lala land again :)


Twin Attack! x3



Simple Smiles :)

Eeeee. So selfish onesxzxzxz. :p

Got nana?

This looks disturbing some how.

UGLY UGLY UGLY :::p

We heart Numeeeees!

Needless to say, Boobs and the Balls.

Haato.



smoke smoke smoke....



Oh love stories.

When actions. Speaks louder than words.

& I'll be missing you.

Is this fate, you're asking me. . .

Clenched fist.

Sunday morning saw me at Mono at 4AM in the freaking morning. LOL. Chilled out with the Artery peeps and had like a really filling breakfast after that. We went for some Nasi Lemak around Sembawang and then I went noob mj-ing with 2 freaking morons (Ethan & Derrick) at Derrick's place while Baby went home. They literally sucked my chips dry mannn. Damn you guys lar, I don't know how to play mj right?! But they were generous enough to stop the game and I didn't have to pay them a single cent :p hahaha. Then... just imagine two guys in their mid-twenties watching Dragonball. Seriously, wtf. LOL. Sneaked out of the house and went home to bathe. Wanted to take a nap but I didn't in the end.

Soooooo.. I went to meet Poldars to celebrate twin love's 19th in the evening. :D We went Mind's cafe to play some games and chilled. It was a blast and we were like the noisiest group yesterday. LOL. Played my favourite game, Uglydoll! :DD And the rest of them were like so freaking bimbo please?! Screaming and snatching all the cards, both of them even tore a card up! LOL. Violent bitches! LOL. True Colours was a nice relaxing game. And the forfeits were super uber gay please! LOL. We danced, yelled and acted so damn crazy at the cafe. Hehhh. But it was super uber fun man! So after Minds, we went down to Haji Lane for sisha. I think the flavour sucks like shit. The after taste of the mint was horrid and it just stays in your throat. Ucccck. Not going ot try that sucky shitty flavour ever again. LOL. Got kinda wasted and soon after had to head home 'cause mum's threatening to cut my allowance. Damn it.

I stayed awake for 40hours before I went to bed last night. YAWNS. And at 11AM, I got a call from Boobies to accompany her and Ethan for lunch! ZZZ. We went to have KFC and then came back my place and we played Black Jack and watched emotional music videos on youtube. Effing gay larrr. Lol. Don't you think today is so effing WARM AND HUMID. OMG. Was so dehydrated and warm lar. So we went to dip in the pool at Hougang. BOOBIES CAN'T SWIM. You lousy boooo. LOL. You swim like a frantic puppy lar. FINALLY. Last stop for the day was 401 for Rojak and Nor Hiang :p hahaha. I'm tired. Yawns.

Baby Feli, please be safe. Take care please.. And God bless Woonkiat. SIGH.
Won't you keep me away from the hurt? Just keep me safe in here...?

Playing on repeat.

OKAY. SATURDAY NIGHT OFFICIALLY SCREWED, I cooped myself at home. Dx
But I'm still waiting to see if I can get wasted tonight. D:
SAVE ME DDD':

On a velllyyy randooom note. I found,

Sexyback? LOL :p
Nice tan I've got on the flabby arms, yo.

HA HA HA. Period.

Rantings!

Handphone issue chapter closed! BAM! :D Just got my favvvvvvv phone, for now. LOL. Please don't cock up again. BE GOODDDD :) I love you my slim slim w890i :D Kinda got sick of brown alr. And the brown hue looks kinda like maroon. Dangs. LOL. So.. I got the colour of stainless steel :D Happy kiddddo :D LOL I'll be waiting to get back to work man. $140 more to go to PRADA. :( I'm going to get a new watch after I get my PRADA. LOL. Materialism. What in the world. KAYS. Enough about braggin' over material.

Sorry Bandits, can't be able to join you guys for Pool @ Parkway :( Kinda sad though. Made a promise with the 2 darling babes to go urm, service. LOL Yupp. So later at 5.30 will be at Expo with babyy, xinxin and boobies :)

I got so frustrated last night. 'Cause of the many things running through my head. It seriously sucks to be cooped up at home during the longggg weekends. I have had my self-proclaim holiday since Wednesday afternoon. And up till TODAY, I HAVE GOT NTH BETTER TO DO. I've been marathon-ing this DVD with 28 horror flicks that Ethan left for me for the past 24 hours. LOL. Damnnnnn sick and tired up there. Want to go work, I'm off scheduled. Want to go out and play, can't just stay out all night. Fucked up. I PRAY I CAN GO TABOO TONIGHT. :( Sigh. Damn it.

I'm jealous, everyone's having a blast this weekend. And I'm not :( Sigh. And I'm bloody freaking planless on Sunday (oh wait, think I DO have plans.), when 5 different people wants to ask me out today. DAMN. HAHAHA. Everyone loves Saturday. Monday come some VESAK DAY. :DD


This is my 4th on the right btw ;)

CHEERIOS, let me have a good saturday night! :)




There's no one, like you.

Dakota

Thinking 'bout thinking of you
So much I think it’s June.
Yeah, think it was June.
Lay about hang on the grass,
You gonna be having some laughs,
Yeah, having some laughs.
You made me feel like the one,
Made me feel like the one, your one.
You made me feel like the one,
Made me feel like the one, your one.

Drinking by drinking for two,
Drinking with you, when drinking was new.
Slipping in the back of my car,
We never went far, you took it far.
You made me feel like the one,
Made me feel like the one, your one.
You made me feel like the one,
Made me feel like the one, your one.

I don’t know where we are going now.
I don’t know where we are going now.

Wake up cold coffee and juice,
Remembering you, what happened to you?
I wonder if we’ll meet again?
Talk about life’s little spin, talk about why did it end.
You made me feel like the one,
Made me feel like the one, your one.
You made me feel like the one,
Made me feel like the one, your one.

I don’t know where we are going now.
I don’t know where we are going now.

So take a look at me now.
So take a look at me now.
So take a look at me now.
So take a look at me now.
So take a look at me now.
So take a look at me now.
So take a look at me now.
So take a look at me now.
Take a look at me now.
So take a look at me now.
So take a look at me now.
So take a look at me now.
So take a look at me now.
So take a look at me now.
So take a look at me now.
So take a look at me now.
So take a look at me now.
Now.

I missed you for far too long, but I've made up my mind a long time ago.

When does it end?

Unpacked stocks, dressed stiff mannequins, curry puffs.
That gay interview with my girls, MOS burger and hmmmmm.
And lastly, a beer for me.
Bus eighty.

I feel utterly depressed today. Got myself thinking way too back. Damn it.

How should I carry on. Is it so hard to just look forward?

Same Mistakes..
So the world turning in my sheets and once again, I cannot sleep .
Walk out the door and up the street; look at the stars beneath my feet.
Remember rights that I did wrong, so here I go.

Hello, hello. There is no place I cannot go.
My mind is muddy but my heart is heavy, does it show?
I lose the track that loses me, so here I go.

And so I sent some men to fight, And one came back at dead of night.
said he'd seen my enemy. Said "he looked just like me",
So I set out to cut myself and here I go.

I'm not calling for a second chance,
I'm screaming at the top of my voice.
Give me reason but don't give me choice.
Cos I'll just make the same mistake again.

And maybe someday we will meet, and maybe talk and not just speak.
Don't buy the promises 'cause, there are no promises I keep,
and my reflection troubles me, so here I go.

I'm not calling for a second chance,
I'm screaming at the top of my voice.
Give me reason but don't give me choice.
Cos I'll just make the same mistake.

I'm not calling for a second chance,
I'm screaming at the top of my voice.
Give me reason but don't give me choice.
Cos I'll just make the same mistake again.

Saw the world turning in my sheets and once again I cannot sleep.
Walk out the door and up the street,
Look at the stars. Look at the stars, falling down,
And I wonder where, did I go wrong.


with you.

Tobacco.

Today.. I had a one and a half hour lesson. Was late too, hahah. Good timing to be so anyway. But..... It made me ran like MAD :( And so, the group spent 20 minutes doing work and the rest of the lesson chatting yo. :p Roche IS irritating. LOL. Had lunch with them after class and went to print some notes. And I also found Babyyyyy in school! Yay. Chatted and off back home.

On a random note, there was this cute guy sitting right infront of me on my way to the bus stop! :D Toooo bad. He has got this ring on the finger yo. Doesn't look like an ordinary looking one either. So yup.

Went to Compass Point to look for a new cell phone. And woohoo, I fell in love with the model w890i the moment I was browsing for slim slim phones :D NO MORE shaker phone pls. :( Just damn sad that my w910i was such a bitch damn it. So BYE BYE TO YOU. Though I really love you, you have to go! :( LOL. Guess my Prada has got to wait :/ The gay-est thing is, I have no work scheduled this week. I have no idea why too. Hmmm :( NO MORE MONEY ROLLING IN.

Chilled at Starbucks with Boobies and Ethan after my dinner. Ethan is such a prick sometimes. ZZZ. LOL. So we got damn wasted again somehow. Need to kick this damn habit too. YAWNS. :( I'm like typing in staccato. I don't know why. LOL.

1st Avenue later at 10AM for set up! I missed that damn bloody place. Beats ANYWHERE in Business School seriously. :/ Last year yo. Sighhh. And off to TPY with my 2 sisters after set up. CIAO. Give you guys some pictures to look at ya? My god, this post is just WEIRD.


@ Haato with some lovings :)

ICE-CREAM MAKES HER HAPPY EVERY SINGLE TIME :)

You have all of me love.

Stay close and don't go.

SLURPS*

My baby bie. Acting fiercely horredously adorable :D

Coffee for the girls :D





Sweeeet. Ethan Thu Ang Zaw and Felicia Teh Jia Hui yo :D

That's all. Chinese music on repeat. :/
&The taste of tobacco lingers..

Everyday...

Jolene was a bad girl today. She made another tiny mistake today. SIGH. Forget it, I'm like always repeating my mistakes. Never listen again :(

I swear I haven't felt SOOOO damn hungry at this hour, and I ate like a pig for the day please. Drats. All 4 meals okay?! ZZZ. Don't know why lar, my stomach is like filled with my burning gastric juices. :( I don't know why but I felt so damn awfully tired today too, right after work actually. During work was fine.. but the moment when I sat my legs to rest, I just collapse and died or something. HAHA. Was an awfully long day as well. School at 10AM all the way till 3+ .. Talked to Baby for an hour or so and off to work. Yawns. I'm also mentally tired. I really can't think anymore.. I seriously can't be bothered by whats happening around me. I have my stupid life to trouble already. Yawns... Can't help but you can just say how ignorant I am. Hey.. Ignorance is bliss. :) Alright time to hit the sack. School work after rise and shine. Then APEL at 3PM, and yep lecture at 4PM till 6PM! :0 Sales Management, I'm coming yo. :D

Gosh, I downloaded like 10 plus chinese songs. I'm addicted to chinese songs now! And I regretted downloading one damn song. Really stupid to do so. Now I'm like emo-ing by my own, listening to that stupid song. HUFFS. Good night. Always a better day, when you open your eyes. :D Though everyday... I....... But....... sigh who cares! Even you fuck cared, so? :/

男人不该让女人流泪。。

Mono.

You know what? Let's just live our own lives. 'Cause if this goes on, it would go on forever. Getting so ugly I don't wish to disfigure myself further. So let's just live with what we have now. You go be happy with yours, I'll lead mine. That way all of us won't be upset anymore. Alright :) When I fall, I'll fall alone. After all, I'd picked it up on my own. 'Cause I never listen until reality slaps me real tight on the face, then will I learn. It's seriously my bad. My sincerest (is there such a word?) apologises to anyone whom I've let down or upset. Truths are always the hardest to take. I hope we all accept it and move on. Cheers.

4th May, HAPPY uh, 70th BIRTHDAY PAPA. Hope you liked the mango cake.. CAUSE I LOVED IT. :) LOL. I think it's like the best cake spasm, yo! :D Okok, he loves mango too. Hmmmm. Guess... My family is back on track again. Just pray that history wouldn't repeat itself again. I'm happy when papa, mama and my 2 korkors are happy :)) Oh yeah, it's also strawberry nanny's birthday too! Happy 19th birthday MAYBELLE :) Hope you get to read this. HAHA. May all your wishes come true, and have many, MANY good returns in time to come too :) Lucks for your future endeavour and everything girl!

3th May, which was officially yesterday. Spent my time with my 2 favourite girls... LIMPING AT ORCHARD :( My ankle still hurts pretty bad. Hope I'll be fine by later 'cause there's work! Yeah, we're on super tight budget, and working towards our goals. PRADA WALLET. I'm COMING :DD Give me uhhhh, 2-3 weeks more. YOU ARE SO GNA BE MINE :) Chatted and lingered around.. Yup and the money talks are seriously driving me up the wall. Even in my dreams, I'm dreaming about MONEY. Damn it. It's like an evil root in the midst of my head! :( DAMN. Tried too hard to pluck it off, but to no avail. Who can live without money ah, TELL ME. LOL. I go live with you. Hmmmm. This time, I really have aims in my life. And I'm going to strive so damn hard for my future! That is, if I even make it to the age of 30! I seriously think I'm going to die young. BOO. Short life. Anyway, I don't wish to live that long either. :p So yupppp. I'm going back to do my tutorials and talk to my pen and paper :) You guys out there, all take care! The weather's freaking unpredictable. Boost up all y'all immunities, douse yourself in vitamins and drink tonnes of h2o yo. :D Many loves from your retarded ball.

Work work work, I'm coming! Oh no, just got a sudden surge to go Dragonfly or Mono now. ZZZ. where the fucking hell is my BOOZE, damn it.

WHY DIDN'T YOU :( NEVERMIND.


Always wanted to be..

Can't sleep, again.

Jolene had been a really good girl today. She met her darlings for lunch way before lecture. O.o Lecture did I just went lecture?! Lol, yup I went today lar. At 2PM. Suppose to go to work today buttttttt, got a last minute sms from lady boss on my way to school to say today isn't my scheduled working day, and so.. It was pushed back to tomorrow. But too bad, it's sisters' day out yo. :D So I can't work! Neither can I attend programmers' outing to eat claypot rice as I promised both retards to go suffer together. HAHA. But then again.... I can't wait to get my booze, or soya bean drink and you tiao!!! HOMG. UBER DUPER CRAVING AT THIS UNEARTHLY HOUR :(

Anyway on a random note, there were many eye-rolling situations that happened this afternoon. The bloody crowded isle of business school, pack with us business students.... I can HARDLY squeeze my way through, then the bloody long queues for FOOD... And somethings which kinda upset me lar.. I know. I changed. Stop telling me so, 'cause I myself am not blinded by my own doings. I'm not stupid enough to do what you call stupid things, I know what I'm doing, and sometimes I don't need constant reminders to tell me what to do, and to tell me who I really am. Sometimes when we try too hard, we just crumble more. I don't blame anyone else for what has happened, I don't want to point fingers, NO. It just happened so that things turn out to be like this. None of us are pleased deep down, but is there really anything else we can do. I was long worn out by this issue.... Just that I kept silent all this while. I seriously don't have that initiative to open up. You know what I think is the best now, silence means EVERYTHING. Peace. I like it, and it doesn't matter if things get bottled up in me, that's my nature. But I do appreciate for caring, all for the good of my well-being. But to think how harsh words can sometimes be, I seriously don't need it.

After lecture, met up with the programmers for dinner and discussion. And back to school at 7 for mass debrief. Everything was such a bore, cycles and cycles of pointless nothings which was mentioned so. End up, I felt that, I FELT THAT, to me I had wasted my 3-4hours in school. And in conclusion with everything, I concluded that last night's mass debrief was officially pointless, meaningless, desultory. Period.

TA MA DE FUAD. I will never EVER forgive YOU. Thanks for picking your flatten pet cockroach chasing me down the isles of business school to the ladies'. Seriously THANK YOU. Disgusting.

Ok, I just made came out with a stupid idea. Stupid Jolene. :/ Oh well, hope all goes well later.
If you are able to pay me back my favour. I APPRECIATE IT. GOOD NIGHT :/
Stay with me?

Ankle hurts.

HAHA. Ignore my last post. So yea, today I'm cooped up at home. I'm suffering from a swollen ankle as well. Damn, nothing's better off.. Sigh. I'm going to do mystery shopping later with Boobies :) So yeah, should be seen limping around Compass Point. Hmmmmm.. Back to watching "If a Stranger Calls" BOO! LOL. Ouch.... My leg really really really hurts.... :( Such a warm day. Bubble tea laters :) Random friggin' post. COOK COOK COOK :D

Secret :x

Pssst.. I think I'm in love with my chef. My cook. Danggggs. :d

This is for you :x
xp
"I want you!"

I must be insane to think so too. Bleah..